Hello Crafty Friends!
I know it's been a minute since I made any posts and I am sorry about that! There has been a lot going on with life lately.
As some readers may know, I have a chronic illness. It just means lots of migraines, skin problems, stomach issues, chronic fatigue, join problems and pain, lots and lots of pain. It is something I've dealt with for as long as I can remember. Some days are better then others and I am very grateful for the good days. But there are definitely flare up days that can get really bad. Sometimes when I get a particularly bad flare up, it puts me kind of out of commission for a while, which could be a couple days to even weeks. Sadly, I am in one of those flare ups and have been past couple weeks.
It is hard to try and keep up a "normal" life during flare ups or even non-flare up days, because you are just running on very low fuel. "The Spoon Theory" written by Christine Miserandino is the best way of describing what it is like dealing with a chronic illness, but also just apt description for life. I will link an article about it at the bottom for those who want to look into it more, but it essentially describes that doing anything in life requires spoons like currency. People with chronic illnesses tend to start their days off with far less "spoons" than the average person. Sometimes certain tasks that take little effort or spoons from someone may take far more spoons from someone suffering like that. For me, just taking care of my basic needs can take all the spoons I have for that day. This also means that I am forced to let projects or tasks that need doing fall to the wayside, because I don't have the spoon required for it. That in itself can be a very hard fact to cope with. I want to do the thing but I literally can't make my body do the thing whether from lack of energy or too much pain. I experience quite a bit of this with my A.D.D. as well with executive dysfunction. So it can start to feel like my whole body is just working against me being a functional human.
All of that to say that, somedays updating the blog, or crocheting a project I really want to get done isn't something my body will allow. So I hope that on the good days where I get to do those things, or even on the medium days I can at least try, that if there are other people out there who have to deal with similar things can know they are not alone. I hope that by pushing through the difficulty, and talking about a more vulnerable topic, I can at least reach one person who is struggling as well and help them know I am here. Chronically trying to craft through the bullshit life likes to throw, and am happy to craft with them.
I hope you all have a beautiful week. Keep crafting and creating!
Spoon Theory: https://lupus.net/living/spoon-theory